Of Love, Of Loss

Remember the time I said
Your love was like the sunshine
Slowly seeping past my curtains,
While I was sleeping,
Til I wake up from its warmth on my cheek?

Remember the time I said
Your love was like a quiet melody
Passively playing in the background
Til it becomes the only thing I hear?

Turns out—

Your love is the sunshine
As at the end of the day,
It’d slowly move away,
Impervious of how I feel,
Of what I need,
Of what I thought I’d given you.

Your love is the song,
With its highs and lows and changing melodies
With the music slowly playing softly,
Fading til it’s gone.

It’s heartbreaking, you know?

It was as if I started out holding your hands,
Without the idea that–
They’d turn to sand and no matter how tight I hold,
You’d end up gone in the end.

It’s difficult to believe–

That you blame all these to yourself,
That I am not the one at fault,
For sure I am, at some point.

It’s easy to pretend–

That I’m so hurt I’d never take you back,
When in truth I want you more than anything else,
That I’m moving on just as you are,
When in truth I am waiting that you’d be back,
That I won’t take you back,
When in truth it’s the only thing I’d ever want.

But then–

I can only hope,
And wait,
And write.

I can only sing,
And live,
And stay.

I know—

You won’t read this,
Not ever.
You won’t hear me,
Not ever–
Not even now, not even then,
Never.

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