Doctor’s Orders

For months I struggled.
Eat half an hour late and I throw up.
Eat too early and I throw up.
Eat a little too much and I throw up.

It is worst in the morning.
Oversleep for an hour.
Is that bile?
Try to compensate and eat something substantial.
Feel full for minutes and spit the same thing out–
Back up the same passage it came in.

Eat and sit still.
Sit straight.
Slide down a little and forget for a few minutes.
Is it coming back up?
Sit up. Sit up.
Would be worse if it does.

No pesky H. pylori.
Not a trace,
Just a ton of skipped meals.
Of overcompensated,
Unscheduled meals.
Is it stress related? Maybe.

Caused by stress.
Causes stress.

For now I try.
Meals — never skip, never rush.
Water — lots of it.
Stress — I try, I try.

I haven’t been back to her office.
She says I would be fine.
I hope, I hope.

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You’re the Only One I Know

You are the only one I know
Who’d keep childhood toys with them
Yet you’re the only one I know
Who’d leave them with me when I get lonely.

You’re the only one I know
Who’d have a heart
Probably softer than mine, and yet–
You’re the only one I know
Who showed how beautiful that could be.

You’re the only one I know
Who’d cry each night, each call
Yet you’re the only one I know
Who’d hold me when I start to fall.

You’re the only one I know
Who had made feel this bliss
Yet you’re the only one I know
Who’d told me it’s the other way around.

You’re the only one I know,
And I want you to know
You’re the only one I know
And that’s all that matters the most.