This Time

Let’s try this again.
One more try.
And this time,
At the same time,
Let’s both let go.
Let’s both move on.
Let’s both forget.

 

Let’s both accept
What cannot be
Means not what could’ve been;
What cannot be
Means not what should’ve been.

 

Let’s both remember
That what we had before
Was just right at that time,
And it was our wrong to think
It would ever be enough.

 

Let’s both forget
What we both hoped and dreamt;
What we both said and felt.
As they are nothing but dead wishes now,
One we must bury, but can’t.
One that must have been, but can’t.

 

Maybe it was frustration, love
Distance too, and time;
Fate has not been kind to us,
For it allowed to meet
What cannot be.
Fate has not been kind to us,
For it let us love
Whom we cannot meet.

 

Let’s try this again,
Together
At the same moment.
Forgive our misgivings,
Forget our feelings.

 

Let’s try this again,
Together.

26052016

I told you
I would’ve waited
I could’ve waited.
No need to rush,
I will wait, hush-
You swore promises
You broke too soon,
A little too much.

 

I told you
What we would’ve been
What we could’ve been.
No need to rush,
I will wait, hush-
You gave up,
Gave up too soon,
A little too much.

 

I told you
I keep telling you, keep telling myself,
The could haves and would haves-
They probably aren’t should haves.
Not here, not now.

 

I told you
I am not for you
As much as you are not for me,
But you know ’tis a lie.
You know I meant none of it;
Just a lie I tell us
To make it a little better,
As much as you lie
That my happiness is yours, too
And nothing else.

 

I told you.
Go see others.
You probably are.
And it hurts.

 

I told you.
Be happy, without me.
You probably are.
And it hurts.

 

I told you.

24052016.

Please don’t talk to me
As if I have done nothing right,
As if I am a complete failure;
Because I have done that myself already.

 

Please don’t talk to me
As if I am nothing but a disappointment,
As if I know nothing;
Because I have done that myself already.

 

Please don’t talk to me
As if I am unworthy of love,
As is I am the bottom rung;
Because I have done that already.

 

Please don’t talk to me
As if I did nothing but fail,
As if I never tried;
Because I have done that already.

 

Please don’t talk to me that way,
It cuts to the core, it does,
Words pass but the wounds do not,
Please don’t talk to me that way.

 

Please don’t talk to me that way,
For I could only take so much,
I wouldn’t say when is too much;
I just might walk away.

 

Please don’t talk to me that way,
Please don’t tell me how to think, in what way,
Please don’t talk to me that way,
Else I cannot promise I’d stay.

20Apr16

Let’s lay down all the rules, you and I
Tell me what makes you hope, what makes you sigh
Tell me what make you look up the sky;
Why you’re too scared to fly.

 

Let’s lay down all the rules, you and I
And I’ll tell you all there is to know,
The chest where all hidden words are kept,
Traces of tear on the last place I wept.

 

Let’s lay down all the rules, you and I
And break then one by one
Lay on the shattered glasses that keep us apart
Pick up the shards, build a new one instead.

 

Let’s lay down all the rules, you and I.
Let’s see the light that would shine through
The cracks and slits, tell me this is true
Let’s lay down all the rules and break them up.

 

We lay down all the rules, you and I.
Broke them all, you and I.
This madness, this flame,
It was so perfect it burned you down, but I–

 

I am here.
In the shards.
Unscathed with nothing but the wound from your silence.

 

I am here.
You’re nowhere near.
I am here, nowhere near.

Nada

The weight of nothingness.
The sense that something’s amiss;
And not knowing what it is.

The weight of nothingness.
The sense that there’s something I miss;
And the inability so say what it is.

The weight of nothingness.
The sense that nothing is here;
And knowing something must be.

The weight of nothingness.
The calm before the storm.
The quiet before life presents itself again, and
Everything.

17Apr16

We lay down in bed
Together, alone
We lay down in bed
Side by side, not eye to eye, then

Slowly, your hands linked with mine
Slowly, my breath mixed yours

After all these years
After all these time
You still make me weak in the knees
Still get lost in those eyes, you said

If this is how it feels to fall,
Why don’t we risk it all?

You see me in the morning
Smile on your lips, frown in your brows
You kissed me goodbye
As I kissed you good night, then

Slowly, your words hurt my eyes
Slowly, my truth broke your heart

After all these years
After all these time
You still make me weak in the knees
Still get lost in those eyes, I said

If this is how it feels to fall,
We could work it out after all.

You said no.
You said no.
You said no.
You said no.

16Apr16

I hear your voice
In the dead of the night
I see you eyes
And how you look to the light.

Oh, it was so good
Oh, it was so good
If only it would last
If only we could last.

I dreamt of you tonight
And your arms around me so tight
Everything seemed so fine
Til I open my eyes and I’m on fire, cos

Oh, it was so good
Oh, it was so good
If only it would last
If only we could last.

It was brief but maybe
That is all there is
I was bad for you baby
And you were bad for me, yet

Oh, it was so good
Oh, it was so good
If only it would last
If only we could last.